Entrepreneurship: When Winning is Like a Drug
This morning, I closed a deal. By lunch time, I am already thinking about my next deal. The joy of winning deals is always short and temporarily. I am addicted to the next win. It is only by winning, I don't feel like a loser. The next win has to be bigger and my ambition keeps growing.
Winning business deals is like a drug addiction. I keep looking for the next high. Small or medium size win does not satisfy me anymore. The business has helped my family through financial hardship. I am not wealthy but comfortable. There are still financial challenges but not world ending. Many told me to slow down, but my foot is stuck at the accelerator. I could not switch off.
This is my first realisation about my addiction. Without this blog, I would not have the courage to confront it. Ultimately, I have to pay the price of this addiction. The sense of winning is too good to ignore. Telling the family that I have everything covered feels amazing. This will come to an end. I have to put it on soft landing.