Festive Depression is Real
On Friday, I have to see a client at the mall's restaurant. I arrived early and decided to hang out at the bookshop. As I listen to the Christmas music and observing children running in the background. A sense of helplessness overcame me. I felt like a failure as I have wasted this whole year where I made one mistake that resulted in a massive financial loss.
I have not told my family about my situation as I could not bring myself to break the news. I told them that I will bring them for a short holiday early January instead of Christmas time. This trip is coincided with a business trip where I need to see a client in northern part of the country. Part of the trip can be written off as business expenses.
I know I should not compare myself to others when there are others who had it worse than myself. Comparison is a thief of joy. I am not comparing myself against others. Rather the soothing music of Christmas carol is a form of self-examination checking on myself how I have performed this year?
If you read this far, I would like to tell you that you are not alone. Festive depression is real. I know you have done your best for yourself and your family. Despite your best effort, the outcome is not what you want. Please hang in there, please stay in the fight. Success may not come immediately. For as long as you stay in the fight, it will eventually come. There is always someone out there cheering for you. I am cheering for you. Stay in the fight! Have a good year end.