Go Deep Within Yourself
Instead of writing, occasionally I would scroll TikTok and YouTube. I was running away from myself. There are many days that I could not face the blank screen as I have nothing to write. I hope I can find inspiration by scrolling through social media, mostly I would ended up feeling guilty for wasting and nothing gets done.
I have no idea where I get my inspirations. It just comes into my mind. It comes to me when I am walking, driving, showering or at the toilet. As I write, I have to confront myself and open myself up like an onion.
The more I write, the more I have to go deep within myself. I uncover emotional issues that I have never resolved. I change my life goals as I was chasing other's dream and not mine. I apologise to my children for my failure as a father because I was wrongly putting my dreams onto their shoulder.
Going deep within our heart is never easy. We have to go through layers and layers of self denial. There are many excuses for our own shortcomings. Our failures and frustrations are always someone else's fault.
Writing has peek into my heart's deepest level. What is yours? What do you do to uncover what your heart has been trying to tell you?