I just Lost USD4,704.36 and I cannot Let my Family Know
This is going to be a very lean Christmas. I have just lost USD4,704.36 because of my own mistakes. I wrongly quoted my client. I only found out after client agreed to the price. Therefore, I must absorb the difference.
Could I have gone back and explain to the client? Probably but I doubt I leave a good impression. After which, they may not want to do business with me anymore. I own my mistakes and take it on the chin. There is no one else to blame but myself. Eventually, I hope the industry can see me as a straight and honest service provider.
I protect my reputation like my life. My competitors are already saying things behind my back, and I will not give them more topics to gossip. I always believe that it is our reputation that first walk through the door before we do.
In hindsight, this is a preventable mistake. I could have slowed down and check my work. I choose to work fast and beyond my mental capacity. When life whispers to me that I need to slow down, I refuse to listen. Now life pushed me into the ground and screamed at me to slow down. I hear it now, and it is an expensive price to pay.
If I am single, I gladly own this mistake. Now, I needed the money for Christmas and New Year. I could not let my family know. My family has been patient with me since I started the business. I already told them that the worst is over. They should not be dragged into my mistakes. I rather my kids to focus on their studies than feeling helpless with the financial situation.
If you have reach this far reading this post. I want to tell you that you are not alone. We all make mistakes. Sometimes, life deal us a bad hand. You could be suffering silently like me, figthing for the family's survival while wearing a mask telling the world that you are okay. I can only tell you that you are not alone. Just be strong and hang on. Follow the path, follow the process. Learn from today and you will have a better tomorrow.
Remember, tomorrow may not always be better but that day will come.