None of Your Efforts go to Waste
I kept countless blog draft. I doubt I will publish all of it. To me writing is a form of therapy to get my thoughts and feelings onto the screen. Does it matter that I do not publish it? Not at all. It is not a waste of effort. Each draft is a journey into my mind. Sometimes I am able to extract something useful, sometimes I don't. Every time I write something, I get to know myself better. That's my reward.
Whatever that you do, give your best effort. Even if you fail, you will not waste your effort. Failure is part of the journey and success is never linear. Therefore you effort does not go to waste but you have to keep trying.