Waking Up Hating Your Life
The following post was drafted on Monday.
This morning I wake up at my usual time, but I woke up feeling overwhelmed. Maybe it is Monday morning blues. There are a few important task that I need to do. I have no mood in doing anything but I am also anxious about not getting my task done. I hate this feeling and hate this life. Most of the time, I would just tell myself "Fuck this feeling and start grinding". I would grind and get the important task done, normally I would feel better about myself. Not recently, I just hate everything that goes on in my life. There is nothing wrong with my life, but I have a sense of deep displeasure. It is not a physical thing but an emotional issue.
P.s. I let my feelings simmer for two days. I feel better. I have no idea why I have such negativity. The only thing that I did differently is I scheduled a meeting with some old friends whom I have not seen for at least 3 months. The meet up was good, we all shared some laughter. There were no agendas, no gossips. Just pure light hearted conversation. Maybe the answer to my misery is not about doing more but creating meaningful connections.