Entrepreneurship: The Always On Mindset
I started my entrepreneurship journey in mid 2020. I have experienced both failures and successes. Through the years, the business eats up most of my time. Besides my family, I was a living and breathing business machine. Whatever I do, the intention is for the growth of the business.
Through the years, I keep telling my friends that entrepreneurship is a lifestyle. Little that I know, this lifestyle has taken over my life, and I have difficulty getting out. It is the "always on" mindset that is affecting my life. I am constantly thinking about my business. I would be worried about sales, collection, customer services and much more. Even though, I have switched off all notifications, I still constantly check messages and e-mails. Despite the hard work, I am not effective as I constantly make mistakes. The more mistakes I made, the more wound up I get.
As I am writing this post, my to-do list has about 20 un-checked items. When tomorrow comes, the list will only grow longer. Some admired my tenancy and willingness to work, but most do not see the emotional turmoil that I have within myself. The constant self-critique of being a loser and being never good enough. I could not even sit still for more than 10 minutes. I go to bed thinking about my work, I wake up worry about my work.
The journey as a business owner has been rewarding. I have pushed myself to levels that I never know I can achieve. It has also cost my sanity and calm. I measure success based on numbers, but life is much more than numbers. If you are embarking the entrepreneurship journey, be ready that you can never switch off.