Finishing the Year Knowing that You Suck
I just found out that one of the targeted size customers has signed with my colleague. The premium of this customer is 3 times larger than my average customer. As the year winds down, this is a punch in the gut.
I have spent nearly 30 minutes drafting this post and restarted the post no less than five times. Changed the heading no less than twice. I tried to justify my feelings and why I could not secure customers of such sizes. What I wrote are just excuses. There is no one else to blame but myself.
To achieve the life that I want, I must have the qualities of the life that I want. There are so many aspects of my life that I need work on. I can only focus on one and not many. This year went nowhere because I tried to work on so many things and achieve none.
Someone told me that next year will be a good year. No. I do not believe that next year will be a good year. Things will not miraculously change for the better. My change, my improvement has to start now and immediately. Even before the new year starts. I am finishing the year knowing that I suck, but I will start the new year trying to be better.
Happy New Year.