Having Enough but Still Striving
As I start the new year, a good friend asked me to slow down as I have achieved enough. In certain ways, I have achieved more than I ever imagined, but I still feel that I can do more.
How about stress? If I do not slow down, will the stress kill me? Stress is always present. If I am not doing anything, I am filled with anxiety as I feel I am not productive. If I am working on something, the demand pushes my mind to the brink of collapse. Whether I do or don't do, I am inside a pressure cooker. As such, I strive to keep doing.
Will I ever feel content? At this point, I do not feel content. I am happy with what I have achieved but I see more in the horizon. What I want is not the achievement but the journey itself. When I look back, I know I have given it all and survived the inner battle.
The inner peace and calm come is when I know I have achieved a milestone. When the feeling disappears, the striving starts again.