Lean into Your Anger
This week I have been angry at my new hire. I find his concentration weak and could not deliver the work on time despite promising me the deadline. As I lean into my anger, the more upset I get. I was firm on my expectations, but I try not to yell.
The frustrations did reach its peak. I reached to the point of no-return where I was about to slam the table. I suddenly realised that I was not angry at him but at myself. I was not doing a good job guiding this new staff, that's why he is struggling. I could not articulate myself that's why he could not give me what I wanted. I did not prioritise and set the expectations, that's why his work is late. I told my partner, I have to split up the training with her. So she can guide him on what I want, while I guide him on the hard knowledge of the industry.
The anger towards him was superficial. It was easy to blame someone else when the responsibility lies on the leader. My anger tells me what I need to do. It is only by knowing what upsets me, I know what changes I need to make.
What is making you angry? If you can change, make the change.