What if You Reached Your Goals?
What if you reached your goals? I pondered this question as I was preparing for the week's work. This week is supposed to be a slow week as it is the Christmas week. Somehow, I still managed to line up appointments and work task.
I think I still continue to work, I be aiming for bigger things. When I started my business, it was all about money. I needed more money for my children's education and wanted something nice for the family. During early stage of the business, the stress ate me alive. Until now, the sense of hunger and feeling like a loser never went away.
If my initial goal is to give my kids a good education, I think I have achieved it. Both of them will graduate by 2029. As for getting something nice for the family, they did not ask for anything more than what we have now.
I still cannot afford to bring them for a nice holiday. If I can just maintain the trajectory of my business and do it in slow increments, I will eventually reach that goal.
Based on the 2 points above, I am very close in reaching my goals. Yet, why do I work so hard? Now I see work as my identity. I am more afraid of failing than wanting to be successful. My parents once told me that I am not cut out to be an entrepreneur. That's why I never told them about my business. Maybe it is what they said is eating inside me, I want to proof them wrong.
But, where is the end game? I don't think there is one for me yet. I am always look for the next hill to climb. Maybe the goal is not to have a goal. I am prepared to die on this journey.