How Writing Kept Me Alive
I do my best to provide the family and work on the business. There are days where I would go to bed feeling like a loser. Things or issues that happened both at home and office would weight me down. As I try to sleep, issues are bullets bouncing through my skull. A good night sleep is impossible.
Initially, I started to journal, but all my journal entries are bitter and resentful. Instead of being all negative, I wanted to publish my thoughts with an emphasis on positivity. I hosted my own Wordpress site, but the site was hacked within a year. I lost all my writings. Then I heard about BearBlog from Derek Sivers. I started blogging through BearBlog and have not stop since.
During Covid, I have no job and no business and loads of bills to pay. I started my business so that I can afford to pay for my children's education. During those dark hours, it was only through writing that kept me alive. I know there are others who are in similar situation and I want to tell them that they are not alone. That's why writing kept me alive.
Was I suicidal? Yes, I was. The insurance money payout is so low that it is not worth killing myself. I pour my heart into writing and have decent success. I was not measuring the numbers as I know it will be low. I was more interested in knowing how I have helped my readers.
Subscribing to lifetime for BearBlog is a huge step for me, as I committing myself to write until I draw my last breath.